Hello, my Pretties...
I have something different planned for today. What if I dedicate one day a week to non-makeup related posts? I was thinking about doing this as a way for y'all to get to know me as a real live person and maybe, even possibly, as therapy for myself.
Today I wasn't feeling all that great. I went to bed last night with such high hopes for today and it all seemed to come crashing down. I felt so heartbroken and defeated.
With my happiness and sadness scale off balance, I began to think about all the stuff in my life that has gone wrong...or not the way I had hoped. Does that ever happen to you? Like, one little thing can lead to something much bigger.
For example, I'm making breakfast and accidentally burn my bacon because I'm too busy Tweeting or updating my Facebook status to "Making bacon for breakfast...yum!!!!" Then I get all upset because my bacon is crispier than I like it so I refuse to eat it. I huff and puff my way to the living room where I grumpily sit and turn the TV on. I'm hungry but I don't want extra crispy bacon. Then the "feed a child for less than a dollar a day" commercial comes up and I see the images of all these sad and hungry children who would gladly eat my burnt bacon and I begin to cry. I wish I could feed all the children of the world. I wish I could do so much more with my life. I want to save the world!! But I don't have a job. I don't own my own house. I'm in debt. I didn't go to college. I'll never have a great career... And the pity party goes on and on until I have belittled myself into almost non-existence. All over some burnt bacon.
Today I was just let down about something that I had wanted for so long and worked so hard for. Or so I thought. I began to think that I wasn't good enough. That I wasn't good enough for anything. So after being down in the dumps all day long, I thought I'd talk to y'all. I'm sure some of you have felt this way before.
All I can say is, if you want something, don't give up. You can't! I won't. I feel so insignificant right now, and knowing me, I will feel this way for a while. I try and motivate myself everyday but some days are gloomier than others. I will get through it, I know I will. All I need is some time. Give me some time to be OK again.
I found these photo quotes online and I thought they were beautiful and inspirational. These kinds of statements helps me heal when I am hurt. I hope that in these words, you too, will find some comfort.
And this song is just a little bonus. Even if it is from a man's perspective, I can relate to these lyrics 100%. I may not be the person I had hoped I'd be by now and I'm not perfect but I'm working on becoming a better person and that's all anyone can ask of me. I'm trying.
I literally shed a tear while writing this post. I feel so vulnerable at the moment. My ego is a little bruised and my spirit is a little weakened. But everyday is a new day and a chance to try harder and do even better. I have to say these things to myself to find the strength to make it through another day.
Thank you for listening to me. I am so happy to have you in my life.
Luv & Luk,